Mamak Clubbers

so who and wtf are mamak clubbers ?

mamak clubbers are a bunch of people who dress up like damn fucking hot and chun , just to go where ? …..

mamaks …

they dress as if they’re entering the clubs and the ah nehs are the bouncers hoping that they’ll get a free cocktail mamak special teh oh ais by squeezing their boobs together :)

so who are these mamak clubbers indo mee grinders ?

specificly but not detailed enough, one  of them is called AA .

AA stands for double A batteries , double A cup and also … her name’s initial .

AA called me fat on a Halloween night this year while we were standing outside Scarlet . Hello she said i was staring at her in a way that i think somehow, harressed her . Must be la . Her bra revealing and all, how can I not stare .

Plus she was being geisha for Halloween . I swear when I get rich, I want to hire hitman to kill people who uses foundation that doesn’t match with their skin tone, example : 2721726718271817u7371234567812526678 tones lighter than actual skin colour .

That is what I call, a geisha .

Enough la being mean calling me fat , enough la saying I’m staring at her in a way ( without knowing what attracts me is her double A bras revealing ) .. lagi want to kill me and round off attack being geisha for halloween , her fucking foundation doesn’t match !

PM me for pictures :) I got plenty since she added me on facebook ( god knows why har har har I stalk you bitch )

MAMAK CLUBBERS . don’t be mean to them when you see them, give them a teh o ais :)

You will never change

I’m so fucking angry at you. I hope you read my blog and I hope you’re not okay . I fucking hate you . No I’m not jealous at what I saw or read , I fucking need a place to vent and I decided to express this at my blog to let people know what a fucked up bastard you are .

You are a son of a bitch . Your mom’s a bitch . Fucking cheap skank .

You always said I’ll never change, how about you? You haven’t change in a slight bit yet . Not a tad little . Not even a bit . Still the same huh – smoking up as usual, what a useless bastard. Least I changed, I grown into a fat bitch .

My ex tuition teacher from Edusmart taught me a quote when I was young – digging your own grave and she meant by watching too much television . I meant by smoking too much meth .

I hope you read my blog , stop dragging everyone I love into drugs, stop bringing them over to your place if you seriously care for your friends . Would I trust you with my life ? HELL NO .

You dragged 2 different circle of friends to Hell two fucking times and this time , you’re dragging someone my age . Get someone your age old man!

FUCK YOU!

FUCK FUCK FUCK!

FUCK ALL THE WEIGHT I PUT ON! FUCK IT ON YOU!

FUCK YOU!

Forget about your classmates and meet me at the classroom .

Another year has passed .

School term has came to an end .

Yesterday was Parents Teachers Day . Mom went to take my academic report and she was really angry at me for my results and behavior in class ( I did nothing except sleeping in class, and I think sleeping is better than disturbing half the class ) .

My results were horrible :-(

Bahasa Melayu – 48
English Language – 65
Mathematics – 8 ( wtf I can’t count okay )
History – 20
Moral Education – 20
Science – 42
Art – 66
Information Technology – Absent
Commerce – 18
Basic Economics – 19

My class teacher’s report was “ Elvina did not prepare or revise at all for this exam ….blaaaaaaaa….OR EVERYTHING WILL JUST BE A WASTE OF TIME “ , damn terasa you know ?!

So, I decided to leave Sri Inai and head west , to Hartamas area =) But with financial problem , I think mom will apply for Sri Nobel

I heard the uniform there is ugly and it’s a holy school .

Google it out on Google.com and I saw some issues they were having in that school .

Anyway I’m so gonna miss all my friends if I really leave Sri Inai .

:-(

Chloe , Rachel and I at Sri Inai’s prom.

V face, Boon Loon, Jun-Yong and I

My best friend and I

Chee V and I =)

All those memories there, can't believe things got so kinky and out of control, I fucked my classmate too.

Am I gonna delete my blog again or what ?

The last time I deleted my blog was because I was new in Sri Inai and I didn’t want anyone to know I do drugs , so I deleted my blog and results = No one came back to my blog anymore .

I lost my die hard fans .

Lol anyway I will never delete my blog anymore because I won’t try to hide who I am and pretend to be someone else when obviously I can’t be.

:-)

I don’t smoke shits.

i NEED cigarettes . someboodee please save me .

I’m out of cigarettes and unfortunately ( or fortunately ) I still have a pack of disgusting cigarettes .

You know what’s the most disgusting cigarette you can ever smoke ?

Black Devil Rose Flavour Cigarettes .

I am desperate

I'm having one of the days where I wake up in the morning , start to call everyone and text everyone on my cell asking for stuff , futhermore all I have is money .. But what I'm lack of is opportunity .

Yes I am desperate .

So what you're gonna tell me when you face this kind of situation ?

P.S. SHOW SOME APPRECIATION LAH :-( when I stopped updating my blog, you people just know how to leave comments on my posts to ask me to update more . when i update, least say I'm a good girl or something lah :-( Heard of Hierarki Maslow Law ? People need love and appreciation.

blogging Elvina’s way, weight issue,constipation and being a meth slut.

First of all I apologize for not updating my blog every now and then .

Well firstly my way of blogging is really different from others .

I DON’T upload a gazillion pictures of myself and blog about how much I’m in love with him .

I personally think updating about your outings once in a while is okay but if every post is about your lame outings – it sucks then .

I really have nothing to blog about , but since people want me to update, I’m just gonna type out what I have in mind recently .

I’m having a really big problem here - my weight issue .

I’m currently 51.1kg , but I still think I’m fat .

Razif said it’s just water retention and I’ll lose them as I get older , but I realized as I get older , the fatter I’ll be and less attractive I get.

Honestly, when I step into the club last time with my skimpiest outfit , I ALWAYS and never FAIL each and every time to get a guy home . From a pilot , to engineers to every occupatiion you imagined .

I get stares , I get whistles , I get numbers , I hooked up every night .

That was when I was still 35 kg with vital statistics, 29-24-29.

Now … it’s a different story lah wei :(

With the weight of 51.1kg, vital statistics of 32-28-32 …

I step in the club , no one gives a FUCK .

my boyfriend untung lah, he feel all the confidence and security in the world . Even I dress the hottest , I still cannot get a guy .

The only guy I got so far was my classmate – a guy younger than me . LOL

Give me a break, don’t tell me I’m fat every time you all see me . I know I had gained a lot of weight . Give me a hug instead ..

They always talked about ugly duckling when I was young , now I am one .

Constipation. I’m gonna talk about shitting today . I used to be so damn busy I didn’t even have time to shit . I will never shit in people’s place , cause I don’t feel comfortable . Yes I rather hold my shit and go home and shit .

Now I’m living a rather average life , I have all the time in the world to shit, I even smoke and drink water in the toilet while shitting , just to tell myself how much time in the world I’ve got .

Funny huh .

Really miss my old druggie lifestyle where everyday is like a new chapter in a book . I know, you’ll probably be saying “ so hard to quit wanna go back to old road meh .. “ but you’ll never know how nice it is although it sucks to be called a meth slut every now and then .

Yes, recently I hang out with K*** S*** , one of my ex boyfriend who used to be a dealer and we used to smoke up together . He told me right at my face , “ You’re so obvious lah. There’s only 3 person you would go to , because they all have ice . You only go to people with ice “. So .. in another way, he’s calling me a meth slut .

Sometimes , to survive in this world , take my advice .

The last man standing got to be the most cunning and cruel one .

Hatred, drugs & why I don’t trust .

I realized I do have a lot of hatred inside me . Built up , not released .

I hate so many people around me , so many things that happened and lastly, I hate myself .

To Him *

I blame YOU for tearing me and my dad apart . We used to be so close back then when I was a kid, he would take us out for dinners . And now… he’s barely even home .

I blame YOU for giving me drugs . You said you loved me , but how can you even dare say you love me when you are actually killing me .. slowly…gently…? I still remember there was once I refused to take the ecstasy you gave me , and you threatened me . I had to give in because I wasn’t brave and strong enough to endure your slap .

I blame YOU for missing a part of my grandfather’s funeral service . I didn’t get to pick up his bones and it’s suppose to be my duty but I wasn’t there . I wasn’t there because of your selfishness, your LUST, and your ignorance . Do YOU have any idea how much this means to me ?

I blame YOU for making my mum  cry . Do you know how much I love her ? She begged you to stay away from me because she knew who YOU were and what YOU were up to .

I blame YOU for my sickness . You caused me to who I was . You made me so paranoid . You cheated on me with her . You have any idea how sad I was on Valentines Day, I was stucked in One Utama with no money and phone and you were out there sleeping with her .

I blame YOU for stealing your friend’s car . YOU got us both into trouble . YOU got me into Brickfields police station and I will never forget that . And YET YOU can push the blame to me and make me feel bad . I think it’s your responsible to pay the bribe .

To myself *

I hate myself for getting into troubles all the time .

I still remember when I was in Taman Sea, I got so used to be sent to the principal’s office all the time . I still remember her name . She’s Pn. Ang , that cunt .

What people said is right , you must sharpen the kids and teach them well when they are young or they’ll turn out spoilt .

Useless I can say.

No contribution to the society .

It started with smoking cigarettes , and one thing lead to another . Basically I’m back to my old road but I’m trying my best to stop again .

When I was younger , I always come across words like, Jauhkan Diri Daripada Dadah .. I always thought that’s plain bullocks till I myself get  hooked to it :(

As I grow older , I got myself in trouble with the cops . Twice .
Once was with the narcotics of Damansara Utama Balai and the second time was with the cops of Brickfields and PJ State .

My boyfriend ( Jiat ) always said that there are nice friends out there , just that it depends on who you mix with , but I still find that a bullshit .

When I got caught the first time , it was something to do with drugs , ONLY my DAD stood up for me and helped me settled  everything .

NOBODY STOOD BY MYSIDE . I was suspended from school and had no school to go , I had no true friends , I only had my drugs with me . And guess what , my teachers were the one who reported me .

The second time I got caught , was midnight ..of a fine night .. I was innocent , in a STOLEN vehicle thanks to somebodeee .

And when the police requested for bribe , NOBODY except S****, E****** and K*** S**** came to my aid . They helped me settle RM1k .

That is why I NEVER trust nobody now and I think you all should do the same . There is no such thing as friends forever , cause the person closest to you might be the one who set you up :)

 

or maybe it’s just too much for me to handle at such a young age .

SIGH is all I can say .